It's about choices...

Ok.
Let's say you've decided you're Done with the big 'D'. You've decided its time to die.
I am not saying *I* am. I'm just saying suppose you dedicded you where ready to?
Firstly, if you're under like 20, you're too young, you've really got too much to live for.

Secondly, if you're killing yourself b/c of a girl/boy/whatever... Again, it's not worth it, there WILL be another girl/boy/whatever. Really, there will be.

I'm talkin...You've done what you've wanted to, or you're ill, or you're just tired of it all or whatever.......

Leave all important info someplace its easy to find. Bank accounts, credit card info, Christmas club stuff, whatever. Leave it someplace handy.

Leave a note. In the note make it CRYSTAL CLEAR...this is no one's fault, nobody's responsibility, etc ...Because there will always be folks who will say 'but I could have/should have seen it coming' or 'why didn't anyone help him/her,etc'.

The reality is, that if you've made the choice really ..NO ONE can stop you. You'll find a way, and anything else will just make things more difficult for everyone involved.

Don't do yourself in in a park or something, because if you 'go missing' then people will be left to wonder what happened to you...this is about making sure there are no loose ends.

A hotel would probably be best. One prefiberly with a tub.
Choose your method, and do it in the tub. Easiest cleanup, minimal mess and bother for all involved.

You don't want someone you know to find you. They're in for enough trauma as is, no matter what you say/do or have said in the note. Them finding your bod will NOT be good for their mental states.
Of course, its not good for ANYONE'S...But its probably easier on some anonymous person then on your friends/family/etc. I suppose it might even be better to arrange for an EMS person to show up or something as they've probably dealt with it before.....
If you must do it at home I guess if you make the call and claim some minor problem then leave the door wide open they can come in and find you.

...Don't make a scene doing yourself in. It's not helpful or productive, and it really really doesnt do anyone any good.


Just some thoughts on my 39th birthday.

Happy birthday to me.

Gah.