It was a dark and stormy nite...

Ok its not. In fact its quite a lovely evening, other then the fact that its 1:40 AM and it appears that I will have another nite of 'no sleep'. It used to happen only occasionally, maybe once every 8 months or so...However this will be (if it continues) to be like my 4th nite of no sleep in maybe 3 months.
I'm getting concerned.
I just feel ....Old tonight I suppose. I still haven't decided if this is a good idea or not, I mean...What am I going to say? Not much really...There's little deep or exciting in my life really, and the important stuff I don't dare mention here..
I guess I"ll put up a picture if I can find one I"m ok with...
Gawd I thought I'd never type those words.... "One I'm ok with.."
Pathetic.
I swore to myself I'd grow old gracefully. I wouldn't care that I was going bald or anything like that....Today I found myself wondering if I could possibly find hair coloring for my beard which has gone from pretty bright red, to mostly white in what seems like an Eyeblink....
I've got a good life, I know this intellectually. I just don't always FEEL it, you know?
hurm I guess I'd better figure out how to put a description up and all...
probably more later tonight..Or rather later this AM.